Hahah I GOT A DRESS. 
It's like white and blue and pink.
Awesome.

Went to school for sectionals, okay, practice with Sarah and Tanya.
Then we met Jaben and Weijin at uh, Bugis.
Lunched there, and then shopped with Tanya.

Omg, I'm totally freaking out cause of what you said, Leanne.
Thanks.
Loadss.
Hahah you and Far are always doing this to me.

Aah I miss everyone from Pe loads.
I really want school.
Sigh I hate the hols.
Don;t wanna be Sec three :((

It's too cliche, I won't say I'm in love.

cheesytophats.tumblr.com

Tumblr is awesome but horribly distracting.

I'm so dehydrated. 

Stayed back with Chloe for the Perc workshop, pracced my horn for a while.
It's horrible. I feel horrible.
I feel guilty.
My playing is :'(
To cry for.
 

Im sorry I screwed it up.

How am I?
Im good, I guess, probably better than I used to be.
I still cant let go but Im learning to deal with it.
I often reminisce about the past but am trying to continue making new memories of my own too.
Yeah you were right, nothing lasts forever.
I wish I could just tell you all of this.




Today my cousin called my handphone at about 9.30 to tell me to whether I wanted to go to Parkway.
Sorry I was late :'(
Went there and we had breakfast, or brunch more like, at Macs.
And thennn we walked around, came home played Finger Twister that we bought to share.
Its damn cool its like Body Twister (which I so wanna get), but its more convenient to bring around and its playable in Japan!!
Hahah oh well.
Went to her house, Face booked, watched Antm Cycle 12 with her.
Came home for a bit and Msned a few people, and went to her house again for dinner.
There was a cockroach in the kitchen which she sprayed with insecticide and like we had to clear up cause it 'hopped' to the sink, according to her.
She picked it up with two pieces of newspaper but it dropped as she put it into the bin.
I tried but I failed and she tried.
It took us many screams, laughter, and four pieces of newspaper to pick the thing up.
There was like brown juice on the side of the sink how gross is that.
So I wiped it up and she washed the dishes and I came home.

Yesterday was awesomee talkin to Chloe, Yiktin, NinjaFann, Tanya, and other people on Msn.
Shocking news.

27 Dresses is funny.
I wanna watch uhhhh 500 Days of Summer.
Tanya says its good but other people say its not good.
Hmm.

Eoys are over but I feel so horribly boredd.
I should start reading some books!!

Obladi, Oblada is a great song.

The hard work for Eoys finally paid off.
Im so happy with my Math results!!
But for Geog it sucks cuz everyone studied so hard for it but all of us scored really badly.
Sigh.
Id rather be in school right now than at home.
Like, after Eoys it's still so boring and like I cant believe it I feel empty without studying.
Theres nothing to doo.

Should go to Parkway with Chloe one day.
Soon.
Get the notebooks.
I have money now :))

My mum left yesterday to overseas and I feel so like horrible.
Ive realised how much Ive taken alot of people for granted and its horrible.

I have to stop biting my lips and peeling my skin from my lips its so gross.
Ew.

I havent touched my horn in ages and I feel so guilty.
I really want to play it but I dont want to cause I know I'll suck and like the house is so weird it'll echo and the soundll be awful.
Cant wait to play the Horn Ensemble pieces. (L)

P.S. It was a test? What is wrong with you haha gosh stop pretending. Cold, Shiny, Hard, Plastic.

Unforgettable, that's what you are.
Unforgettable, though near or far.
Like a song of you that clings to me, how the thought of you does things to me.
Never before has someone been more unforgettable in every way.
And forever more, that's how you'll stay.
That's why darling it's incredible, that someone so unforgettable,
Thinks that I am unforgettable too.

Can you just fucking get out of my life and stop pretending to be nice to me. 
Go. Away.
I do not need this from you right now.
This is all I can tolerate.
I swear, if I could have someone to get out of my life completely, it would be you.
 
Seriously you do not want to mess with me now.

I hate it when people order me around.
Kai do you have this, Kai can you do this, can you help me get that.
Kai go get your phone. Pick it up I wanna talk to you.
Kai eat this, Kai eat that, don't buy that, don't eat that.
Kai you're so fat, you're so lazy.
Kai do this, Kai do that, Kai KAI KAI KAI KAI.
What the hell.
And dont just assume that I am goin out with you just cuz you ask me to, I have my own social life, OKAY;
ARGH.
ARGGGGGHHHHH./
SCREW YOU.
ITS NOT MY FAULT WHEN I DONT GO OUT WITH YOU OR ANSWER YOUR CALLS OKAY.
ITS NOT MY FAULT IF YOURE OBSESSED WITH ME AND YOU WANT ME TO BE THERE AT YOUR EVERY CALL.
I AM NOT ALWAYS AVAILABLE TWENTYFOUR-SEVEN OKKAY.
I DONT MIND HELPING YOU IT IS HONESTLY OKAY.
BUT STOP ASKING ME TO DO STUFF ITS SO ANNOYING LEAVE ME ALONE FUCK IT.
STOP ORDERING ME AROUND. GIVE ME A BREAK.

This asshole on Tv is insulting Michael Jackson on Tv and he's tryign to imitate him on stupid Singapore Idol.
It's pissing ime off.
Do people not understand that they should add their own creativity into songs.
And plus, when they dont have their own originality and they copy the original Artists style, and they can pull it off then it's fab. 
BUT WHEN THEY CANT PULL IT OFF ITS EVEN WORSE.

I need to calm down. GRAHH.





Today was a good day until, obviously, all of this horridness came.
The Sec Ones were okay.
I guess.
Except some people in our group.
Bitchez.
And then went to Parkway.
Hesitated and wondered and sat on the floor of Borders wondering whether to buy a cool notebook with Chloe.
In the end we didnt but were goin back to get them, cuz we both have Borders Gift Cards. (L)
Got this Ez-Link card coverer thingy from ew, Mini toons, it's with Disney Princesses!!
Went to Subway wayy before that. And like. Yeah I need Subway cookies now.

SINGAPORE IDOL IS PISSING.

Lay off.

Today was horrible.
Science.
Shit you.

Frig.
I hate this.
My mum's like yelling at me, cause I told them to Chillout.
Seriously, they've got to relax.
All she does everyday is yell.
Yellyellyellyell and Yell.

Grah I'm so pissed off right now.

Science is killing me.
I fucking hate Chem
Grrah GO AWAY.

:@@

"Lady lights a cigarette, puffs away, looks around, no regrets. Stretches out like branches of a poplar tree, she says, I'm free. "

The papers these days have been okay.
Hahah TWO MORE PAPERS ONE MORE DAYYYY.
TENDOWN, TWOTOGO!

I feel so lucky to have such good friends.
Aaah I love you guys to bitssss.
Bathtub Dominance. ;)

Cloud pine. says (10:18 PM):
*SIGH
*bimbotic barbie or actual woman!

Tarzan(L)NinjaFann says (10:19 PM):
*EXACTLY
*ACTUAL WOMAN

Cloud pine. says (10:19 PM):
*yes!

I hate it when I start reminiscing.

"Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting." 

“And even though we know we shouldn’t love certain people, we do and always will. Because there are just some people in this world who will get us for reasons we can’t explain, even when they shouldn’t."

"She was a girl that spoke her mind, never played games and acted confident when she could barely stand looking in the mirror. She didn’t gloat of her achievements, or tell of them even though she had made many. She lived in mistakes, in past regrets, and she’s just beginning to realize that sometimes, you can’t change things. That you can’t go back in the past and sometimes, you just have to move on because life’s too short to dwell on the unchangeable."

"Did you ever notice that there is always that particular line in that certain song that always stands out and reminds you of that one person whom you can't forget?"
(via runawaytrain) (via just1moreday)

“ Do you know the most surprising thing about heartache? It doesn’t actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart, or a head-on car wreck, it should. When someone you’ve promised to cherish forever says, “I never loved you,” it should kill you instantly. You shouldn’t have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn’t know.

(via standverystill : dilaudid : finallyseeing : unicornology : pretty-bird) (via blurthelines) (via breathsoftruth) (via letterboxlove) (via just1moreday)
 

If you pick me a flower, I’ll wear it in my hair. I’ll stash little notes for you where you least expect them. I don’t have many firsts left.. but I’d like someone who I could offer all of my lasts. We’ll make history together. I’ll wait for you even if you’re late – and I won’t complain about it. Kindness to cashiers, valets, waiters and maddeningly slow postal clerks who would try the patience of Gandhi is a must. I will feel safe and most at peace in your arms. When you’re counting aloud, I will try and mess you up. I find you magically delicious. I will let you be right when it doesn’t really matter. I’ll giggle when you show off and I know it’s just for me. I’ll hold your coffee while you drive. I can build a fire without burning the house down. If you wash the car with me – I promise to wear a white t-shirt for you. I‘ll hide around corners and try to scare you in the middle of the night.. of course, I’ll end up scaring myself and you’ll have to calm me down. I can change a flat tire and my own oil. It’s the simple things you do that make me swoon the most. I love it when you sing to me. I’ll make you mickey mouse pancakes. Sleeping in has a whole new meaning now that we’re doing it together. I’ll cover you up and kiss your forehead when you fall asleep watching tv. I won’t swear around your family or make you wear silly sweaters at my family’s during Christmas. I’ll grant you three wishes. I’ll make you laugh. I’ll stare in wonder with you at that hot chick with the great rack. I will marvel at your strength. I’ll take care of you when you’re sick. I give a kick ass massage. I think it’s hot when you come home all dirty from playing or working hard. My heart will skip every time you walk through the door. My kisses will take your breath away – seriously. I’ll giggle if you leave your socks on in bed. My quirks and oddities have been deemed ‘adorable’ and I will love you more everyday for all of yours. I’ll hold you when you need it. I will give you space when you need it. I will let you be you. You’ll sleep better when I’m next to you. I’ll thank you every time you open a door for me. I’ll never give you shit in front of your friends. I won’t ever let you leave for work in the morning without your lunch and a passionate kiss. We can watch your movie first. I’ll clean the house perfectly every time your mom comes by. I like horror movies only when you’re with me and only as long as you hold me close. I don’t litter. I love when you pull me down to sit on your lap. I love it when you lay your head on my chest in bed. I can be ready (shower and all) in half an hour. I’ll look cute as hell in your shirt in the morning. I can balance a checkbook. I can never turn down a challenge. I’ll fit perfectly in your arms. I’ll understand if you get jealous – and do my best to show you that you have no reason. Hand-written love notes will get you laid every time. I can totally keep a secret. I’m pretty damn funny and will do anything to make you laugh. You will always look hot to me in the morning. I think it’s cute when you eat off my plate. When you’re sleeping, I’ll try to stay quiet. I’ll call when I say I will. Treat me like a woman and I’ll treat you like a man. To clarify: I’m not looking for a fix-up project, or anything of that sort. I’m looking for a man who quite simply adds something extraordinary and special to my life. And I to him. A fair exchange, an amazing mind, body and soul connection and a place to build something magnificent.

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Packed my room today.
I feel so letharg.
And so trapped, cause of Eoys.
Damnn.



From Dictionary.com
hate [heyt] Show IPA verb, hat⋅ed, hat⋅ing, noun 
Use hate in a Sentence
–verb (used with object) 1. to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest: to hate the enemy; to hate bigotry. 
2. to be unwilling; dislike: I hate to do it. 

–verb (used without object) 3. to feel intense dislike, or extreme aversion or hostility.

–noun 4. intense dislike; extreme aversion or hostility.
5. the object of extreme aversion or hostility.

Origin: 
bef. 900; ME hat(i)en, OE hatian (v.); c. D haten, ON hata, Goth hatan, G hassen

Related forms:
hater, noun 

Synonyms:
1. loathe, execrate; despise. Hate, abhor, detest, abominate imply feeling intense dislike or aversion toward something. Hate, the simple and general word, suggests passionate dislike and a feeling of enmity: to hate autocracy. Abhor expresses a deep-rooted horror and a sense of repugnance or complete rejection: to abhor cruelty; Nature abhors a vacuum. Detest implies intense, even vehement, dislike and antipathy, besides a sense of disdain: to detest a combination of ignorance and arrogance. Abominate expresses a strong feeling of disgust and repulsion toward something thought of as unworthy, unlucky, or the like: to abominate treachery. 

Antonyms:
1. love.



"You figured you could toy with me until someone better came along and I wouldn't mind because some big star wanted me, well you know what really sucks about falling for a guy you know you're not right for? You fall anyway because you think he might turn out to be different."

I am so pissed with myself.
I only covered like.
Globalisation, Population and Cultivation today.
How unproductive is that.
Like not even fully understanding the thing.
ARGH.
It's like 2am and I've realised I mug better at night cause I'm more awake.
This sucks.
I feel like pulling an all nighter.
The only distraction s that at night everyones online.
As in, most people I talk to are online.
DAMMIT PEOPLE. GO OFFLINE SO I CANT TALK TO YOU!!! :'((
Doing Land Supply now.

I;ve been neglecting this Lj, it's just that I find that there's no reason to post nowadays.
Nothing is happening anyway.

I feel so guilty for knowing people who are causing something to sabotage me and my friend which is not even my fault.
And Jamie says it's not my fault so why should I be guilty.
After all I am used to all this backstabbing crap, aren't I?
I'm really sorry.

GEOG=KILLER.
 

Have I mentioned how much I love Jamie and Tanya?
:))
Love you guyss!!!

I am never ever taking bus 66 from school at 2 ever again.
And Jamie's never dropping at the Barker busstop at 2 plus ever again.
We pledged to not do this.
FREAKY K!!

JAMIE LOVES HER DEAREST SWEETHEART CHEN NING says (6:39 PM):
*waffletown is evil
*i dont like it anymore
*hmph.
*haha
Peterpan(L)NinjaFann says (6:39 PM):
*hahahah
JAMIE LOVES HER DEAREST SWEETHEART CHEN NING says (6:40 PM):
*it puts my life at risk

Hahaah :))

Today was fun.
BakedRice during Home Ec with Sarah and Guiz.
It was damn fun and I just finished eating the rice.
Awesome.

I think my granddads coming over to stay at my house.
And my mum promised that I'd never have to give anyone my room ever again ever since her friends went back to HongKong.
Not that I mind or anything but I think that she's guilty and stuff.
Like. Sure, she promised me, but there's no choice and like. 
K, honestly quite annoyed that I have to give up my room again, which means no where to study in the house, but yeah.
He's my granddad for God's sake!!

TWO FOUR SIX EIGHT WHO DO WE APPRECIATE?

Spoilt, pretentious, arrogant, backstabbing, bratty, ignorant Bitch.

I loved ScissorsPaperStone with Wen, Gaby, Gui and Sarah today.
Arm wrestling too.
I've learnt something today.
Gaby is strong but Wenyuan is exceptionally strong.
My blood vessles look like they burst this morning.
Eww.

There's double period Chinese tomorroww.
I wanna skip school.
Aaaah.

I hate studying.
I'm so full.
And yet I feel like eating Chocolate.

I miss Band.

The different JCs came over today.
Like they set up different booths.
Saw Fann, she dragged me to the NJC booth and screamed at Janice to get out of her way so she could show me the picture of the Horn section on the NJ board.
Then we talked for abit abot Band and school, and dreams and caught up on stuff.
I miss Band.
Shitloads.

No Assembly today, instead, we had Math.
Double Period.
Ew.

 If you wanna know if he loves you so, it's in his kiss//

School was normal today.
Yep accept a lil planning with Jamie and Tanya.
Hahah it was funnn.
And then went opp Coro with Tanya, Burger Shack, ate lunch.
Walked around Coro for a bit and got cool sweets.
And then there were really like cute and cool stuff there like stuff to decorate stuff.
And there were these really nice Winniethepooh and Benten and Hellokitty watches, they were so cute.
And the lady said they're originals so if there's anything wrong with it we can go refund.
But then I didnt get it cause its a waste of money and my mum would ttly kill me.
Tanya found some stuff she wanted to buy.
OH. The Tintin shirts!
The shirts were really cool but a waste of money as well :))
I'm gonna save up and go to the shop after Eoys to buy lots of stuff!!
That reminds me.
I owe so many people gifts.
Jamie, Tanya, Wenz, and many more to come.
After Eoys, guys!!
Sorry!

I'm in the mood to paint something.
Abstract art. 

Today's a good day!!
I woke up at 12, cause I mugged the night before, and I did MOV.
For like. Three or four hours straight.
How cool is that!!
I'm so proud of myself.

And then I came online, received some really great news!!!!
I started screaming like crazyyyy and my mum started yelling at me to shut up.
Hahahh and then she kinda ruined the news by saying some negative stuff about it and the consequences if I dont do well in my studies.
Which suckes. But anyway who cares :))
I'm on top of the moon.
Caught up with my friend in China who I havent talked to in ages.
I miss them all so much!! :'((
And we're going out for dinner at 6 :))
Yaye.
Finally, for once in ages we're going out.
And with my cousins family too!!
Awesome.

Astor Piazzolla is the bomb.
I feel like painting something.